Angel

Holding your finger in my palm
I look at you o angel and see
Gratitude, love and eternal calm

Amidst ego, lust and delusional living
Ambition, race, ruthless striving
Purposeless directionless I was wandering

I had given up long ago
All childhood hopes and expectations
And once those gone I was too rigid to flow

In this ocean of people I was drowning
And somehow didn't want to be saved
Not knowing what I want, on instincts I was surviving

It is an illusion for sure and yet it is true
I feel pain I feel misery I feel love
How can what I feel not be real but for you

Strong on the surface yet when fortunes shake and stir
Atlas has to sit on his knees and the sun has to blur
I had gone down yet you pulled me back from nadir

I had stopped existing I was gone
Seeing the reflection in the mirror I wondered all along
Where am I lost, and then I saw you and knew I am not alone

Thank you for saving me

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But these words are a myth a dream a hope
I wish you were here but you weren't ever
This senseless life and its downward slope
I look for you but you aren't there...